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So, here we go with Camp NaNo (she said, posting her day 1 report a day late. But, alas… that’s just how it goes sometimes. The good new is, I cranked out my words. I set my goal pretty small – 15,000 words for the month. I’m sure I’ll pass it up (I hope I will), but I figured that would be good… since I’m pregnant and in the process of moving before the end of April.

I’m still super excited to try!

I did make a decision about what I wanted to do for Camp though – I was really willy nilly about how I wanted to tackle it. At first, I thought I’d do rewrites on my novel Cerulean Darkness… and then I thought, “No, I don’t want to rush rewrites and end up having to completely rewrite the rewrites… maybe I’ll just finish my novel Limbo during NaNo!”

And then I thought… “But, I don’t really want to rush through that, either. I’d rather have something that I don’t have to rewrite 100% after I’m done with it.”

So, I sat and I wondered for a minute what I wanted to do… and then I realized that it didn’t have to be so complicated. It’s CAMP, damn it. You’re supposed to have fun at Camp, and I have full intentions of having fun with what I’m writing. I’m using this as a platform to get me back into the habit of daily writing, and I’m not going to make it something that stresses me out so that I don’t want to do it.

So, I decided on 30 writing prompts, one for each day. I’ll probably be posting some of them up here for you guys, and I’ll certainly post some of the prompts up (from day 3 on, since I’m not gonna be able to today) so that anyone who is struggling with how to get your words for camp can follow along! The point is to get yourself writing, and the point is to hit your goal! So, I think that’s what we need to do, and I think that we all need to just have a lot of fun doing it! I know that I, for one, am actually excited about the prospect of getting things started. I’m not even going to sweat it if I don’t finish the prompt – I’ll hit the word count that I can hit for the day, and I’ll leave it. If nothing else, I’m going to have the beginnings to 30 pretty rad stories, and I’m super fine with that.

I’d love to hear how Camp is going for you guys, with day 2 closing out. I’m at right around 1000 words so far, 500 a day. I’m happy with it. I’m really satisfied.

Let me know what your projects are, or if you wanna follow along with the writing prompts every day! Regardless, I can’t wait to hear about it!

So, until next time! Keep read and writing, and keep being the awesome people that you are!

Author Amanda McCormick

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Hey, everyone! It looks like it is nearly that time again, doesn’t it? Camp NaNoWriMo is quickly approaching us all, and I find myself in a little bit of a quandary. I’m not completely certain if I want to participate.

In April, my husband and I are going to be moving; that of itself provides a challenge when ti comes to finding time to be creative. I have to add to that the fact that I am pregnant, oddly hormonal, and easily tired. I’m afraid that I won’t be able to find the time or energy to really complete a big project for Camp.

However, I’ve made the decision to go ahead and push forward. I sat my project amount for 15,000 words. I think I can manage that. I’m not working on a new project – I’m working on rewrites for a novel that I want to get properly edited. I think that I can do it, even with everything going on.

Regardless of if I can, I want to try. And that’s what is so important here; I’m trying to take the advice that I gave out so often to all of you – I have time to do it. It may not feel like it, but somewhere along the way, I can manage 500 words a day. I know I can. I know my limits, and I know how long that takes me to crank out. So, I’m going to push forward, even though I’m afraid for the first time that I might fail… and now that I’ve made that decision, I’m all the happier for it.

I guess this blog is here to encourage all of you who are teetering on the edge of doing Camp NaNo or not. Go ahead, go for it! The worst that will happen is you won’t hit your goal, but you know what? You’ll end up getting more words than you started out with. The only way that you can really fail is if you never try at all. So, push forward, strive for your best… and know that in this scary writing process that is attempting to better yourself, you are never alone.

Until next time, you guys! Keep reading and writing, and keep being amazing!
Author Amanda McCormick

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Tag Thursday

What is today? Today is a Thursday >_> and apparently the day that I decide to get back into my blogging. I’ve feeling great! I’m going to do an update blog after I finish this, but I wanted to get back into this exactly how they’re supposed to be going… so, Tag Thursday it is! I grabbed this tag from Jenna Moreci’s vlog! Enjoy, because here we go!


What kind of writer are you?

I am taking this to mean what genre do I write in? I dabble here and there, though you’ll mostly find me in the young adult area. However, amongst that I’ve done horror, paranormal romance, and high fantasy. I also wrote most of a lesbian sci-fi romance for NaNoWriMo this last year… I pretty much go wherever my muse takes me; it’s my favorite thing, exploring avenues that I haven’t been down yet… because you never know what surprises you’re going to find!

When did you start writing and what made you want to try it?

Shoot, I’ve written for a long time. I’ve always, always loved to read, and even before I was physically putting them down… I was writing entire novels in my head to put myself to sleep, finishing up books the way that I wanted them to end. I wrote my first novel in 6th grade though. I guess what made me want to try it was just the knowledge that there were so many worlds out there that only I could make. I also really, really wanted to make other people happy, the way that books made me happy.

What inspires your stories?

There is no one thing that inspires my stories. Sometimes I just have a dream, and realize that it needs to be a novel. Sometimes, it’s a writing prompt that I see. Sometimes, I go to my husband and I say: I want to write a novel about zombies. Tell me something that would make this interesting… and then he gives me a twist to it, and it turns into a novel. My creativity more than anything else inspires me, and the world around me.

What themes do you explore in your writing?

No particular theme. I feel like those are kind of something that you discover as you’re plotting your story out, isn’t it? I’m not the kind of person who is centric to one theme and one theme only as a driving force. I’m everywhere.

Are you a plotter, pantser, or plantser?

I would consider myself a plantser. I plot, but I don’t plot so heavily that I don’t have wiggle room. I try to leave myself space for discovery while having a clear route from beginning to end – if I just so happen to deviate and see something along the way? Well, all the better, yes?

Where are you in your writing journey?

I… am… in a weird place. I have two novels that I really feel like I could seek publication with if I ever got them properly polished up. I have an amazing support system in my husband and family, and I’m pretty happy with the social media presence that I am very slowly garnering. I don’t know… I’m just on the teetering edge of really going for it, I guess. But being pregnant and wanting to really show my kiddo that you can go for your dreams may be the push that I need.

Have you entered any writing contests, and have you won or lost any?

Uh? Yeah, I’ve entered a few in my lifetime? I’ve won the few that I entered, but it hasn’t been too many? I’m really weirdly private about my writing… which I should get over, since I wanna get published.

Who are your writing heroes?

L.J. Smith and J.K. Rowling. – L.J. because she’s the one who really got me into the genre that I started writing in. Rowling because she was turned down so many times, and look at her now. Honestly, everyone who strives for and acheives their dreams inspire me.

Have you been to a writing conference?

Nope. I should change that.

What are your top three tips for newbie writers?

Ohhh, top three tips, huh? Well, lesse.

  1. Keep writing – that’s the hardest part. It isn’t always going to be good, and it certainly isn’t always going to be easy… but the best thing that you can do is keep writing, whenever you can, because it’s going to make you better, and it’s going to help you to grow as a writer.
  2. Don’t be afraid to take constructive criticism – I’m saying this to every form of artist, from writer to musician to someone who draws. You have to be able to take constructive criticism (not people being a dick, never take that). But when people tell you how you can improve, you need to listen. Never become complacent. Do not stop striving to better yourself. The moment that you think you’re the best you can be is the moment that you will never improve again. The only person you are in competition with is yourself, but you should always try to be a better artist than you were yesterday, and most often than not, constructive criticism and always trying to learn is the way to do that.
  3. Give yourself a break, but only in moderation – Sometimes, things aren’t going to work out the way you think. Sometimes, your book isn’t going to get accepted. Sometimes >_> you get pregnant and are so sick/distracted you can’t write for over two months. It’s okay to give yourself a break, but do it in moderation. Don’t let a necessary break turn into excuses. You know yourself, push yourself as hard as you can without breaking.

And there we have it! That is the Author’s Life For Me Tag! I challenge you all to complete it and link back to me, so I can see your answers!

Until next time, you guys! Keep reading and writing, and keep being amazing!
Author Amanda McCormick

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Monthly Wrap Up

(Warning, I’m having typo brain today xD)

Hey, I at least hopped onto here to get my monthly update out! Though, in all honesty… I should be getting back to normal now that March is rolling around. This month when I said that I would, I forgot that my husband’s sister was visiting. She lives out of the country, so she was here for quite a while… which means that we were distracted for quite a while.

Anyway, as far as the monthly update goes, I haven’t gotten that much writing done. Thankfully, I’ve gotten a bit. It’s mostly been RP replies, and a little bit of this and that… but the point is I was getting some writing in. All told, I only hit about 6,000 words for the month, which is a far cry from my normal 30,000 word goal (28,000 for this month). But, it was something… which makes me feel a little bit better.

As far as everything else, I’m feeling really well now. My morning sickness is all but gone – I’m actually starting to get a little bit bigger xD So I’m assuming that I will eventually get uncomfortable from that.

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As a fun little thing, here’s a picture of my baby. We went for a gender/health scan and found out he’s a perfectly healthy baby boy.

Anyway, I’m hoping I’ll get back to regular posting in March.

Until next time, you guys! Keep reading and writing, and keep being amazing!
Author Amanda McCormick

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Life and Writing

Oh dear… I really am going to figure out how to get my writing consistent again someday. I do have to say, the break that I took is solid proof about everything that I’ve been saying – it takes weeks, months even to properly establish a habit. It only takes skipping it for a few days to unlearn all of the things that you’ve taught yourself. I intended to start fresh yesterday, but I was exhausted.

Baby makes me exhausted. So I didn’t.

But I’m starting today. I don’t know if I’ll immediately jump into daily blogs, but I’m going to try. More importantly, though, I am going to get back into writing every day. Just gotta take a deep breath and dive back into it, right? I have to push aside the mountain of snacks on my desk to check out how much I wrote last month, and I know it was a completely dismal number.

… and shockingly, I still made my word count. *Blinks* 16,013 words written for the month of January. I boosted my word goal down to 500 words a day… so I was still about one thousand words over. I’m actually not as disappointed in myself as I thought I would be – I’m going to take that lack of disappointment, and I’m going to use it as my fuel to get back into the groove of things again. At least, I’m going to try my damn hardest to. We will see how much I can get written today.

So, other than my little update right there, I wanted to go ahead and let you guys know what blogs you should be expecting! I’m going to get back into my tags, and my writing prompts. I should also have a book review up soon of the new A.G. Howard novel, RoseBlood. I mean, honestly, did you expect me to see a Phantom of the Opera retelling without immediately snatching it up? I needed it – I got it… and I do have to say that so far, it’s been completely amazing.

I also want to get a right and proper baby update blog – clearly, with my lack of writing every day, we can already tell what the topic of choice is going to be for the blog, and how the little one is changing my writing flow… but that will probably come up tomorrow. For now, I will give you a small, brief update. Things seem to be going well – I’m damn near 18 weeks. I have another appointment on Valentine’s Day, so I can let you guys know more about the physical aspect of it then! It’s been truly amazing so far, and I wouldn’t change it for anything. But, as I said, that’s for a full blog… probably tomorrow, maybe the day after. I really need to look at my posting schedule and see if I want to rearrange it.

For now, though, that’s all. I hope you guys are doing amazing, and I’d love to hear life updates for all of you as well!

Until next time, you guys! Keep reading and writing, and keep being amazing!
Author Amanda McCormick

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Life and Writing

As you can all see, I’m not really back on my blogging schedule just yet. However, I am super happy to say that at 1 day shy of the 17 week mark of my pregnancy, my morning (see: all day, all the time, no matter what) sickness has finally dissipated. This blog is just going to be a lot of me musing, thinking, and a general update on me. Hopefully (fingers crossed) I will be able to get back to my blog schedule after this, though I might just do some random blogs until Monday, and then start fresh (I always work better when I do it that way.)

Anyway, onward to the random thoughts.

First of all, I came into this year knowing that I might have a few days where I wouldn’t be able to write. My expectations for myself were still extremely high… but they were high with a little bit of a learning curve for everything I knew was going on with me. I’m sure that a lot of ladies who are pregnant, especially for the first time, are having to figure out everything. For me… figuring everything out came with a one week break from writing. It was the weirdest thing I’ve done in over a year, because I’ve written every day, consistently, for over a year… but this past week has been crazy. My husband has been extremely sick, and I’ve been fighting off the last of my morning sickness. What I haven’t kicked is the exhaustion that comes along with being pregnant. I’ve gone from insomnia to sleeping for 12+ hours a day. It’s so strange. However, it’s seeming to level out… but my body was demanding that I get that rest.

So, I did something that I wasn’t expecting to do… and I listened to my body.

I have to say it was the smartest thing that I could do. I took a week off, and I’m coming back into writing completely refreshed and rejuvenated. I’m going to recommend doing this to everyone – not just to pregnant women, but anyone who is going through something extremely stressful, or who is very sick, etc. Lower your word count – take some days off if you have to… but listen to your body. I know I’m a huge advocate for writing every day, and I still believe that you should.

But every now and then, you have to take a breath. So pick your days wisely, give yourself a time limit, and just know that when you come back, you need to come back strong.

Moving onward, I really… really… really am seeing a direct correlation between the amount of caffeine that I consume and how much I want to write. I miss my giant cups of coffee – they were my writing fuel. I know that a lot of it is probably a habit that I established. I’d wake up – get a big cup of coffee, drink it and write in the morning… and now I can’t do that. It’s spoiled my habit.

I need to make a new habit. It’s the second thing that I’m really discovering in all of this. We can train ourselves to think that certain signals mean that we can or cannot write. You can’t become so dependent on those signals that you can’t write when you don’t have them. I have to learn to write without my big cup of coffee, as much as it pains me. If you can’t have your certain playlist, your certain writing area, your certain writing beverage or snack… you still need to be able to write. We can fight through it together, guys. I believe in us.

Lastly, I’m going to hit on the current… environment of the world, without really getting into my own political opinion. I know that things are hard for a lot of us – unsure, frightening, scary… and I’m just going to leave you all with a bit of advice (I might write an entire post about my thoughts on all of this later, but not now.) But that advice is this: We need our writers now, more than ever. We need our thinkers, we need our people who will give an opinion. We need the people who can offer stories for people to escape into. We need our creative minds now more than ever before. So please, keep on writing ❤ You’re amazing.

Until next time, you guys! Keep reading and writing, and keep being amazing!
Author Amanda McCormick

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Hey, everyone! It’s Tag Thursday, and I’m trying to get back into the habit of properly doing my blogging! So, I found a writing tag over on this blog! Make sure to check it out! Anyway, onward to actually answering the questions!


1. Is there a certain snack you like to eat while writing?

I like to have something that is easy to eat, like chips, or sunflower seeds, or something like that. Sometimes when I’m having a writing binge, I’ll have a ton of candy, or actually  get my dinner/lunch while I’m writing. I usually have a ton of coffee while I’m writing, but I’ve had to cut out on that since I got pregnant. *eyes wordcount* I wonder if that’s why my amount of words that I usually write has gone done? Hm, questions… questions indeed.

2. When do you normally write? Night, afternoon, or morning?

It depends, honestly. I have a huge variety of times that I like to write. I used to write a ton at night, but again… the whole being pregnant thing has changed up my schedule. Now, I tend to start writing around 8pm every night. I don’t know why, exactly. But it’s getting to be a habit – if I haven’t gotten my words out by then, I’ll tackle them, because I know that I don’t want to be waiting until I’m tired to do it.

3. Where do you write?

I either write at my desktop, or recently at my laptop in the living room. I have a little writing corner where I have my laptop/all in one/keyboard, etc all set up. It’s my second writing home, for when I’m not feeling like getting off of the couch.

4. How often do you write a new novel?

At least once a year, since I started doing NaNoWriMo. Now, if you were to ask me how often I start a new novel, that would be a completely different answer. I start new novels constantly, plot them, get excited about them. I’m actually hoping to complete 2 novels this year… but we’ll see how that is going to go. Everything is kind of up in the air right now, depending on how I handle this whole being a Mama thing.

5. Do you listen to music while you write?

I do! I actually listen to my Spotify a lot (Oh, look a link here!!) At least, I think it’s a link. I have different playlists for different moods, but I tend to listen to my Fallout writing playlist a ton while I’m writing.

That could be because I’m writing Fallout a ton of the time when I’m writing. Who knows xD

6. What do you write on? Laptop or paper?

I’ll plot occasionally in a notebook, but for the most part all of my writing and plotting (and everything in between) happens on my laptop or desktop. I used to handwrite (my first novel that I wrote was handwritten), but I have a lot of wrist issues, so I can write by hand for about 5 minutes before everything starts to hurt and go numb. It’s really put a damper on the whole “plotting by hand” thing that I had going on.

But, honestly, with Scrivener and how organized it is now, I really just love writing on the laptop/desktop anyway. If not there, I’m generally on googledocs, cause I can access that even when I’m on my phone, so if I’m out and I needed to take notes, there they are.

7. Is there a special ritual before/after you write?

Uh… I don’t really have a ritual. If I’m writing creativly, I do like to get my music on to block out all of the other sound. Other than that, I just write. I guess I could say that writing on mywriteclub has become a ritual for me, because it gives me those fancy little stars so I can keep track of how much I’ve written. As to a ritual after, I do get up and record how much I’ve written. I need to know, after all. But all and all, I don’t really have something that I have to do before or after – generally inspiration just takes me, and I follow whatever whim it leads me along.

8. What do you do to get in the mood to write?

Sometimes I have a dream. Sometimes I am in the middle of writing a story of a novel. Reviews to fanfics that I’m writing always get me in the mood to write, because it’s amazing to see that people are enjoying what I write.

But… in truth… a lot of the time when I write I’m not in the mood to write. I am of the firm belief that sometimes you have to start, even when you aren’t feeling it. I find that after I get those first 500 words out, the writing is flowing, whether I was in the mood or not. It’s all about getting yourself going, even if you don’t feel like it. At least, that’s how it is for me.

9. What is always near the place you write?

A drink? Generally. I have water, or gingerale right now. Other than that… pens, paper, my calendar to see how much I’ve written. My laptop, if I’m in the living room. I don’t know o-o

10. Do you have a reward system for your word count?

It’s kind of just rewarding for me to get my 1,000 words every day. I will reward myself afterward sometimes, like, “If you finish your words, you can go take a nap.” or “you can have a tiny drink of that soda”… but usually, I just do it. It’s such a habit now that I just do it.

11. Is there anything about your writing process that others might not know about?

Hmm… I don’t know. I mean, usually I’ll sit down and just get at it. If I don’t know what I’m going to write, I’ll just start with a random scene – I let whatever is in my mind at that very moment form the first words, and then I make it work from there. My writing process is a very strange thing, full of ups and downs.

I do have to say, if I don’t feel like I can be creative, one of the most helpful things that I’ve come across is to practice stream of thought. Basically, I open a document and just write whatever I’m thinking and feeling. It really helps to get the words flowing, and then I can usually get down to the creative writing fairly easily after that!


So, there we go! Tag Thursday! If you end up doing this, link back to me so I can know!!! I’d love to read your thoughts and answers!

Until next time, you guys! Keep reading and writing, and keep being amazing!
Author Amanda McCormick

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Deep Magic: A Contemporary Gothic Fantasy by [St. Kevern, Gillian]So, let’s talk about what I’ve been reading. I haven’t finished the book yet, but I went into my Kindle Market and flipped through the free books… and I found this.

It’s called Deep Magic, and it seems to be part of a 3 book series. I’m a sucker for a good trilogy, so that drew me in right away. As is the tradition for a lot of books that are free on Amazon, the first one was free, and it looks like I need to purchase the other two.

I’m not super far into it, but from what I’ve read as of yet, it seems like it is something that I’m going to end up buying the rest of. I’ll go ahead and grab the description for you guys!

Oliver Evans spent his youth spinning one tall tale after another until it got him over his head in trouble. Returning as an adult to his grandmother’s cottage in Aberdaron, Olly is determined to put his past behind him and settle down. But the misty Llŷn Peninsula hides dangerous secrets. Olly is torn between the Longing, a powerful force driving him away from the only home he has ever known, and the growing conviction that the merman prince of his childhood make-believe is real–and in desperate need of Olly’s help.

There is more truth in Olly’s stories than he realises. If he is to have any chance of righting past wrongs and rescuing his prince, Olly must navigate the truth in his old stories and discover the magic right in front of him. But Olly has a powerful enemy on the Llŷn, an ancient king who would like to end Olly’s story-telling permanently.

So, it’s a pretty nifty M/M fantasy type romance novel, and I have to say that it’s certainly snatched up my attention and is going to do a good job of keeping it from what I can tell. I’ll admit it to you guys and anyone else who wants to know, I am such a sucker for M/M romance – I don’t know why, I can’t tell you exactly why, but it has to be one of my favorite things to read (and to write, for that matter), so the fact that this contains that is enough to really snatch my attention as well, and keep me reading for a while.

I should be getting more of this read tonight or tomorrow. Hopefully, by next Friday I’ll be able to give you an actual book review and let you know my thoughts on it. So far, it’s fairly well written and I’m enjoying the characters. I’m curious about where it’s going to go.


As far as the novel, that is all that I have on it for right now. But I’m going to give you some more of my reading thoughts in general, and what you can expect to see on these Friday Updates.

What I’m really wanting to do is delve into the world of authors that aren’t well known, books that aren’t really talked about, self-published authors. The fact is, I think that they don’t get enough recognition, when in reality they can be some of the best hidden gems that there are in the novel world. I set myself a goal of reading 52 novels for the year, but even if I only find half of that in good self-pub and lesser known authors, I’m going to be pretty happy about it.

With that being said, if you have a novel that you can recommend, if you are a self published author who wants me to review your book, or if you know someone who could use the publicity of being featured in an in depths review, just let me know. You can either comment here, or send me an email at amandaleannemccormick@gmail.com. It’s one of my resolutions for the year – to reach out, to review self pubs, and to do everything that I can to help authors who aren’t getting noticed enough noticed.

I know how hard they work on their books, and I know how much they deserve it, so!

Now, this isn’t to say that I’m not also going to be reviewing traditionally published books, because I certainly am. There are some releases that I’m excited for, and a few other novels that have been out for a while that I’m going to get to… but expect to see a big variety from me.

That being said, this particular blog is just about wrapped up. I hope that you guys enjoyed it, and I can’t wait to tell you more about the novel that I’m currently reading!

Until next time, you guys! Keep reading and writing, and keep being amazing!
Author Amanda McCormick

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Life and Writing

Hey, everyone! So, the day for that explanation that I’ve been talking about has finally come. I was waiting for a particular day, a particular date… and it’s here now, so I’m ready to share. I’m gonna take a small break from writing talk (though not really, cause it has a huge impact on my writing) and talk to you about what’s been going on with me. A warning: if you don’t want to hear about pregnancy/troubles with it/emotions surrounding it, just skip this post and suffice it to say the first trimester of being pregnant is what has put a hold on my writing.

Now, for those who do wanna hear ❤


Just a little bit into November, I had this epiphany – this realization, if you will. I… hadn’t had my period for over a month. I bought a test on the day of my very first write in ever, took it… and spent the entire write in wanting to go home, because it came up positive.

I’m 27, married, I have a wonderful supporting husband and a lovely circle of family and friends. Being pregnant isn’t a bad thing – it’s actually a beautiful, joyous, amazing thing. Josh and I were both really excited, and so we called the doctors and got my dating appointment set up; basically, that’s where they give you an ultrasound to see how far along you are.

At least, that’s what I thought was happening?

I didn’t expect to really see anything. I was maybe six weeks. I wasn’t even sure if I was that, because my period is abnormal. I couldn’t see my normal doctor because she was out of town for a few weeks. I honestly should have taken that as a sign and waited, but they wanted me to come in as soon as possible, so I did.

And I got my scan.

And the doctor couldn’t see anything but the little sac where the baby eventually grows. She smiled, she said it was either I’d gotten my period date wrong (I hadn’t, but the fact that I wasn’t always normal didn’t seem to register to her?) or there was something wrong and it wasn’t a viable pregnancy. She signed me up for some blood tests and sent me on my way without any type of comfort, or anything like that. “I’ve seen it go both ways, so…”

That was it.

I was a little shocked, to say the least… but I took a deep breath and went home. I did something that I haven’t done in a loonnnnnngggg time. I prayed.

Let’s backtrack a little – I’m not really a religious person. I believe that there’s something out there, but I am a firm believer that people are way too good at screwing up for me to let a person define it for me. My childhood experiences with religion (in a very southern kinda Kentucky) had kinda soured me on it… so it wasn’t something that I was really into. I’m of the mind that there is something, but people aren’t capable of understanding it. Through this experience I’ve learned that you can have faith without it being the definition of an organized religion – I can still have my values and beliefs that we can’t understand the actuality of a higher power… but I can still believe in it, and that’s pretty amazing for me. And honestly, it made all of the difference in this situation.

Okay, anyway, I prayed. And I got just… the most peaceful feeling. It was weird, but I felt better about it. So, I went to my blood tests, and I had taken two of them and was on the way to my third when my doctor sent me an email.

I think that this is probably a miscarriage. Your numbers aren’t exactly where they should be.” She basically told me that it was her professional opinion that my baby was dead, but to go ahead and take my third test.

I’d done it by then, and I was so damn devastated. I ignored that feeling of peace – shame on me – and I cried.

I cried a lot, until my husband came home… and he told me that I couldn’t do that. That I had to think positive. That I had to be positive. And almost like everything was aligning, I get another email.

Your numbers still aren’t where I want them to be, but they have raised. Come in for another scan and we’ll see what’s happening.”

I was so elated. She basically removed the death sentence that she’d put on my little baby and gave me hope… and that was when I realized something. Prayer and positive thought are really powerful things. They really make a difference, and that feeling of peace that I felt initially was something that I should have trusted. Faith is something that I hadn’t felt in a long time, but I felt it then.

So, we went back to the doctor, and I had positive thoughts. I flooded myself with positive thoughts. And I prayed, and I said “You show her, baby, you show her the strongest little heartbeat that she’s ever seen. You prove her wrong.”

We went to the doctor… and… there it was. A strong heartbeat. My baby. It was there, and it was healthy and perfect… and she looked up at me and said, “Oh, wow. I can tell you congratulations now.” She was glad that she was wrong, but she wasn’t sorry that she’d been so harsh. I kind of had to take a step back and realize that sometimes it is really all about having the right doctor.

So… she completely removed that death sentence, and the entire month of November that was basically uncertain Hell for me suddenly got better. And I kept up with those positive thoughts and that prayer, because I realized how important it is. I realized that miracles really can happen, and that things that seem hopeless can be okay. I know there are other people who are in the position that I was in, and I want them especially to know that things can be okay, and that giving up hope is the last thing you should do. Just hold on, stay strong, and keep your positive thoughts and prayer going into the Universe ❤

I went to my next scan (with my actual doctor)… and things were perfect again. Little tiny flailing limbs that would someday be arms and legs. Strong heartbeat. Perfect baby.

I gave another huge splash of prayer and positive thought, and moved on to the last scan that I had on the 5th. And it was life changing.

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My kiddo had gone from a little bean to a little person. It had developed arms and legs and eyes and years and a nose… it had a perfect little profile, and I have to say that I’ve never felt more in love. I’d crossed that really unpredictable time – the first trimester – and I’d made it to the second, when things get less scary for losing the baby.

So, that’s where I am at. The last three months have been a roller coaster, and one that I couldn’t have gotten through without finding a little faith again, without a lot of positive thoughts, and without the best support system that a girl could ask for.

I’m probably going to post one a week with an update on this – how pregnancy is changing my writing, how things are going… because I think that a lot of writers are also Moms, and I know I’d be interested in reading it.

But that’s my little update, and my reasoning behind why things have been so crazy. Thank you so much to the people who were supportive during this time, and thank you so much to all of you for being patient while I wasn’t around ❤

Until next time, you guys! Keep reading and writing, and keep being amazing!
Author Amanda McCormick

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Writing Prompt

Hey, everyone! It’s been a while since I’ve done this, but it’s good to be getting back into the groove of things! I am changing the day that I post my writing prompt to Monday, because it just flows better. I’ll be experimenting with my schedule on and off for January to figure out exactly how I want to settle into it! Anyway, I won’t waste a ton of time chit chatting, let’s get straight into the prompt, shall we?

You’re writing one day, when suddenly you find yourself pulled into your own story. What happens?

I thought this would be pretty fun – it’s also a way to talk about what you’re currently writing without having to spoil too much of the plot! I thought that it would be an interesting prompt to start the new year out with, if for no other reason than to get you interested in your current writing project again.

I will be posting my response on Saturday! On Sunday, I will do a second blog to link all of the responses that people do, so that we can make sure to share the fun around! If you end up doing this writing prompt, just make sure to link back to me so that I know, that way I can get you linked up and shared out properly on my blog! If you’re doing it on something other than wordpress, just comment a link to it on this blog, and I’ll make sure to still link back and share, regardless of the venue!

I’m really glad to be back to blogging properly, and I have to say that I have missed you guys, especially getting to see your responses to my writing prompts! I can’t wait to see what you all come up with!

 

Until next time, you guys! Keep reading and writing, and keep being amazing!
Author Amanda McCormick

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