Life and Writing

Now that things are settling down, I’m hoping that I can get back to blogging again. I do know that it probably won’t be an everyday thing for a little while… because I certainly have some distractions that are stopping me from being able to commit to sitting down every day and formulate a coherent blog xD but, things are finally calming to the point that I feel like I can post one or two times a week again without fail.

I have to say that life with a newborn and still trying to write is challenging, to say the least. Hell, life with a newborn and trying to do things like eat regularly and get showers when I want is a challenging thing. Still, I’m managing to do those things (mostly)… so I think I can do this, too!

Things have been so strange and different! I do want to thank all of you for the congrats on the baby ❤ I’m sorry that I couldn’t get back to them sooner… hectic. Things are hectic when you’re a breast feeding mother; all that the kiddo wants to do is be on my chest. Most of the time, when I finally get him settled down to nap, if I get time to go to the computer (I’m usually scrambling to do laundry, eat, clean while he’s down), he’ll manage to wake up because he can sense that I’m wanting to be a little creative.

It’s just how he do. I’m not upset about it – I actually expected myself to need a month or two to adjust to everything. Hell, I expected to need to take a month or two to just heal up and want to be doing things. Thankfully, I felt pretty good the day after I had the baby, so I’m not having to worry about that. I just have to worry about the fact that I need to figure out a new writing routine… and that’s what this is all about, really. I am going to figure out a new writing routine. I know things are going to be a little easier when I get a mobywrap, because I’m going to be able to wear my little monster. He’s a mama’s baby, so he will be a lot happier on my chest. But, I’m going to figure it out. I am determined, and it makes me excited that I’m determined. My writing mojo kinda disappeared for a while during my pregnancy, but it’s come back in full swing.

It’s just a matter of figuring out where it fits into my new life. I know things are different, but just because things in your life change, that doesn’t mean that you have to change your passions.

You just have to figure out how to adjust.

I know for now I’m probably not going to be doing any in depth work on my novels, as much as I’d like to. For now, I’m probably going to work on fics when I can and try to get some writing prompts done. I’ll be doing RP replies. It will help me get back into the proper swing of writing, without being a novel that I’m just gonna have to tear apart again if I end up doing something poorly because I was stressing myself into doing my novel.

I do think that by November, I will have things figured out enough that I’m going to be able to participate in NaNoWriMo. I’m excited about it, even though I’m not sure what I’m going to work on. I had hoped that I would have finished my two novels that I’m wanting to option for actual publishing so that I could work on their sequels…

I don’t know that I’m going to be that figured out… but that’s the point. I’m going to take it day by day, until I figure out how to get my writing into my schedule again.

I’m going to take it day by day and remember that we need to always make time for ourselves and for our passions, no matter what is going on in our lives. I want to teach my little sweet miracle baby that it is always important to pursue your dreams, even when things get hard. I’m not going to fold now and let him be the excuse for me to not be a good role model. No, I want to teach him that dreams are always worth striving for, and passions are what make us burn on the inside.

So, hopefully, when I write my next blog, it will be with an update of the things that I’ve gotten done!

Until then, though! Keep on keeping on! Keep on writing, and I hope that you’re all doing fantastic!

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20139769_10212479448755060_5040169976405401405_nHey guys, sorry I’ve been away for a while… but as you can tell by the picture ❤ There was a reason! Elijah Axton was born on July 13th, 2017 at 5:41 am. He weighed 7 pounds, 3 ounces and was 20 inches long.

He’s a pretty precious little boy, even though he made me wait quite a few extra days to meet him. (His Due Date was July 7th!) However… let me tell you, I think that he was just saving his delivery for when it could come in a bang… and I’m going to use this blog to tell you guys about that experience!

Buckle up and get ready xD there will be some graphic descriptions. If you aren’t in the mood to hear a labor story (which I’m blogging about for my own rememberance just as much as to share the experience) I understand you skipping this one ❤

So, on the morning of July 13th, I woke up with some cramps. My doctor had scheduled me for induction a few days after… and she didn’t seem very hopeful that anything was going to get moving on its own. I knew for a fact that you could have cramps and what not for days before actually delivering, so I didn’t think too much about it. They came on and off throughout the day, but they weren’t anything that caused me any alarm. It was just like… uncomfortable cramping that came and went.

As the day went on, they did get a little closer. I phoned Labor and Delivery and asked them when I should be concerned xD And here is where the story gets a little interesting. They told me that I shouldn’t come in until the contractions were strong enough that I couldn’t speak through them. I shrugged it off and didn’t think anything else of it – it was their mistake, but I should have taken into account my pain tolerance as well.

Fast forward to that night – I am in (what I didn’t realize) far more active labor… and playing League of Legends with my hubby and friends to distract myself. The contractions are hurting a little more, but kicking ass on ARAM is making me pretty delighted. Josh finally went to bed, and I continued to deal with what was going on with my body. The weird thing was, I wasn’t feeling the contractions in my stomach – it was just making my thighs cramp. I did squats, stretched, and took showers to alleviate the irritation… but I didn’t call to see if I could go in, because I was still managing them just fine. I could still talk. I could walk.

No big deal, right?

Finally, around 4something, I called L&D again. I could still talk through the contractions, but it had spread from my thighs to my back as well. I was uncomfortable enough that I was thinking of going to the hospital to get a bit of the pain medication so I could sleep before I did go into labor. (I had full intentions of going all natural without an epidural, but I was okay with getting some IV painkillers if I hadn’t slept for over 24 hours – which I hadn’t.)

They tell me I can go ahead and come in if that’s what I want, so we get ready and drive to the hospital. I walk from the parking lot to to the hospital without help, and it’s only Josh insisting that gets me into a wheel chair. By this point, the contractions have randomly amped up to happening every 3 minutes or so, and I’m actually starting to feel pretty uncomfortable. It’s about 5:20 when we get there. I get to triage and they tell me I’m 5cm dilated, so it could take a while before anything happens… and with this pain in my thighs happeing ever 2-3 minutes and me only being half way there, I go ahead and sign a paper to get an epidural. I’ve heard multiple times that the worst thing you can do is be exhausted when you’re actually in the pushing phase of labor, and I’d rather my baby be healthy than to follow some birth plan. I sign the papers, I’m answering questions… and they wheel me into the actual labor room.

They’re asking me more questions, but I’m starting to get extremely irritated that they’re trying to make me calmly answer things while I’m in pain… and as soon as I get put onto my bed, my water breaks.

Now, I’ve read a million stories about people’s water breaking… but I’ve never heard of it hurting. Mine hurt. Mine hurt enough that my husband left the room to tell the nurses that I was in pain – they come back and tell me how good it is that my water broke, and then lean to check on me…

And immediately widen their eyes, because there’s a baby ready to come out. They had to double check, but sure enough, Elijah decided to come right then and there – clearly their 5cm guess (which was done incorrectly because of my water not being broken and making it hard for them to measure) was wrong. They barely had time to call the doctor into the room – they didn’t  have time to properly put an IV in my hand.

I pushed four or five times, and my little baby was born into this world. There was no epidural, no pain relief… and I have to say that it wasn’t actually that bad. I was more in shock than anything, because I went from having quite a bit of time to wait to it suddenly happening then and there. Pushing hurt less than the leg cramps, and it was kind of a relief, because I stopped feeling them as soon as I started pushing – I did still feel pushing though, and I can’t say that it was painless.

But God, seeing his little face for the first time made me completely forget about any pain that I had. So, after arriving twenty minutes earlier, the baby was out. I had multiple nurses who were just stunned at how quickly things had happened, and I have to admit that I was still shocked myself. But… things were good. Elijah was perfect ❤

By the time that I was ready to move to recovery (a few hours later) I was actually good to walk. I felt great ❤ I don’t know if it was the quick labor, the fact that I got to labor at home in a stress-free environment, the lack of epidural… but I was doing wonderfully.

I super recommend laboring at home for as long as you can. I super do not recommend laboring at home for so long that you barely make it to your hospital bed. They told me if I get pregnant again I should probably come into the hospital a bit earlier, because I’m apparently prone to very quick labor xD


Elijah is 7 days old now, and he’s a beautiful little thing. I’m hoping that as things calm and settle, I can get back into the routine of blogging and writing again! But, that’s all for this one. I just wanted to share an amazing story with you guys ❤ I will hopefully be back soon for another post!

Oh! And for those who are curious, I hit my 10k Camp NaNo goal, so I won. Yay xD

Until next time, guys! Let me know about your Camp NaNo plans!

Author Amanda McCormick

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Hey! It’s Day 5 of Camp NaNo, and I’m actually keeping on a decent enough track that I feel good about what I’m doing. I hit a stride writing for a day and got some fics finished up/some things posted on my A03 (which I haven’t done in months!) I’m only at 2,000 words… but since I have a 5,000 word goal, I’m pretty pleased with it. I plan on being at 3,000 minimum before the day is out, so we will see how all of that goes!

I’d love to hear how all of you are doing as well! What are your goals? How far are you into them?

My favorite thing about Camp is the fact that those goals are adjustable! I was talking about it to a friend earlier, and it just got brought up again today. Even if you start the month out with a 50k goal, you can end up lowering that to 10k, if you realize that you bit off more than you could chew. Camp isn’t about banging out that novel as fast as you can without taking a breath to notice your mistakes (AKA: NaNo in November, which is all about the novel xD). It’s about getting some writing done, getting your stride, and completing a goal… and more than anything, it’s about enjoying the community that NaNo provides, in this particular case via your cabin and cabin mates. My Discord Writing Channel has a great environment for writing and community. I honestly don’t know what I’d do without them. I’ve made some amazing friends through it, and I know that my writing has improved because of them.

Writing is a cumulative experience – we are always growing and changing. People come in and out of our lives, and they influence how we write, what we do, what we strive for ❤ So I think that it’s a good thing to surround yourself with people who have a common and equal goal of writing, of creating, if you can! That’s what makes Camp so damn awesome… because there are thousands of other people who are working towards the same thing that you are… and that thing is creation! 

Anyway, there’s my little pep talk for the day! I really would love to hear how you guys are doing so far in Camp. I’m going to try to get a few words banged out this morning as well! I had a sip of my husbands coffee before he left for work, and I felt my inspiration flicker its head >_> I really do think that there is a direct correlation between the flavor of coffee and my muse.

She must be a coffee whore. It’s just too bad that she has to wait a little while longer before I can properly start her engines like I used to! Ah well! Off to writing I go, and you guys should do the same!

Until next time, guys! Let me know about your Camp NaNo plans!

Author Amanda McCormick

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My true love gave to meeeee…

Just kidding, I won’t blast you all with my singing. That could be cruel. Still, it is the first day of Camp NaNoWriMo… and I find that I’m not completely sure what I’m doing. I’m due to have a baby in 6 days… and I’m a bit daunted by the fact that I signed up at all. Still, I haven’t missed a Camp yet, and I certainly don’t want to miss one now. I’ve really been missing writing… so I figured that Camp this year could be a free for all. I’m going to count all of my writing towards my meager 5,000 word goal, because it’s more about getting the flow going again, in opposition to getting a certain bit of work done.

That being said, the 5,000 word goal is still really high up there for me when I can’t figure out what I want to write. I had a thought of going back to my very, very old fanfiction.net profile and picking out the most popular fic that I have on there (whatever that might be) and rewriting it with minimal plot change. Just basically getting it out there and redone in my new writing style for a little bit of fun… but — and maybe it’s the hormones talking — I don’t want to go back and read my writing from when I was a teenager right now. Hell, I have trouble going back and reading my writing from five minutes ago without laying down a harsh judgment hammer on myself.

So… I’m contemplating what to do instead. I’m thinking I might get some more prompts out there – those always seem to inspire something when I start them (see: My inability to write a short story without it somehow spiraling into a novel). I also thought that I’d tackle some chapters of the fanfics that I have on my A03 account because I’ve been dreadful about ignoring them for months now.

I don’t know. I just know that things are pretty crazy right now, and there is certainly a lot going on in my mind…. but that doesn’t mean that I’m going to stop writing. I’ve been lax on it, and it’s honestly getting to me. I feel better when I’m writing every day, and I feel more clear and relaxed. I’ve let that slide, because I’ve been mainly sleeping and resting up… but I want to get ready, to get started. I want to get back into it, because I can feel it in my mind and damn near on my soul that I haven’t been creative lately. I’ve been… er… creating instead. You know.

A baby.

But… I’m pretty much finished with doing that, and I want to get back to my writing. Hell, I want to get back to my writing from my baby, so I can show him that we should always strive for our dreams and passion.

So, Camp NaNo, I’m still gonna getcha, baby or not. Here I come.

Until next time, guys! Let me know about your Camp NaNo plans!

Author Amanda McCormick

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So… the July Camp NaNo that may or may not be won… that’s what I’m calling this particular Camp. You see, the thing is… I’m due to have my little baby July 7th >_> The fact is, I don’t know how much writing I’m going to be able to get done in the month of July…

But that’s exactly why I signed up for Camp. I sat my goal relatively low, and I want to see if I can hit it. I very much want to try to push myself to still get writing done, even when things are so chaotic. I’ve just gotten settled into my new writing environment where I can actually sit and write again. I’m really, really ready to get back onto a schedule.

It’s just going to be a matter of figuring out that new schedule once the baby gets here!

I am definitely going to take you guys on a strange journey of trying to figure out how to write while I have a newborn, but I figure that Camp is a great dry run for actual NaNo. My goal is to be able to still win in November.

I think I can do it ❤

Until next time, guys! Let me know about your Camp NaNo plans!

Author Amanda McCormick

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Life and Writing

Hello! So, that thing that I’ve been talking about forever (not the baby thing xD yet) has finally happened. I’ve moved, and I have to say that I’m really pleased with it. There is, of course, still a lot to do. We have to get the rest of our stuff (It seems like there is always more stuff to get, eh?) and we need to clean the old house a bit… but our room, our new little home base? It’s set up.

And honestly, I’m really happy. I’ll go ahead and give you a little tour of my general writing area – if you guys want, I can give a better tour in a different blog post. I’m pretty pleased with my setup though.

So, if you check it out… above is my writing desk. I have my screens up, my M&M’s ready, my Fallout, Borderlands and DBZ (and copious pandas) all set up… and it feels really great. If you check it out, right beside my writing desk is the baby’s area! I thought that it would be best to set it up right by where I’d be most of the time so that I can still (hopefully) get a lot of writing done after little Elijah arrives. ❤ He has an adorable little nautical theme, which I am loving so much. He will be within arms reach whenever I need to get to him!

If you direct your eyeballs to the third picture, that’s the view from right beside my desk. It’s a little cloudy today, but living on a lake with a gorgeous deck that I can walk out to… it’s nice. It’s writing with a beautiful view, which is something that I find to be pretty important and helpful when it comes to getting things done.

So, that’s my tiny little tour there. Like I said before, if you want a more in-depth one I will be happy to provide. But… I’m really happy. I feel so peaceful here, and even though there’s still quite a bit to get done before we’re completely done with the whole moving process. We can take it at a nice walk now, instead of running.

And finally… finally… I feel like my writing mojo is coming back. I’m going to dive back into it as best I can, and I’m more excited for that than I thought I would be. It has been stressful to not get writing done; it really does physically and emotionally strain me not to get words out. I’m hoping that I can get back into a pattern of daily writing. I don’t have a solid plan of exactly what I’m going to do – I think some writing prompts, some RP responses, and I’m going to start looking over my novels again. I’m also wanting to get my fanfics going again since they’re a lot of fun to leisurely work on.  All and all though, everything looks bright and it feels good again.

That, my friends, is worth quite a bit!

Anyway, that’s all for this post. Hopefully, I will get back to posting multiple times a week on here as well! I truly miss getting to communicate and interact with all of you!

So, until next time! Keep read and writing, and keep being the awesome people that you are!

Author Amanda McCormick

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Life and Writing

Hey, everyone! Sorry it’s been a bit since my last update (I feel like I’ve been saying that a lot lately), but I’m still trying to make sure I poke my head in here to let you all know that I’m still alive.

I’ve just been ridiculously busy!

We’re setting up the new place to get moved in, which requires new carpet, paint, curtains, a ton of cleaning, etc. Doing that when I’m on my 8th month of pregnancy is pretty crazy… but it’s going to be worth it. The room is coming together, and we should be moved in by the coming up weekend. That means (fingers crossed) that I will be around a lot more to get writing/updates done. I think I’m gonna dive back in by doing a week of writing prompts, so I’m hoping that some of you guys can join me!

Other than that, things have been pretty slow as far as writing goes. I’ve been prodding at it a little, but a lot of my time and energy is spent either doing the moving thing or sleeping (this baby apparently loves making me lay down.) The weird thing is, my insomnia hasn’t gone away…. but I still need to get like at least 6 hours of sleep to even think of functioning. I end up laying in bed for hours and hours and hours just to attain that. Once we’re moved, I’m going to have my desktop setup in my bedroom… so it’s going to be a lot easier for me to use that insomnia for writing fuel.

I’m honestly very excited, and I’ve been missing blogging. My goal is to get both Limbo and Cerulean Darkness finished and edited before the year is out. It’s gonna be crazy, what with a newborn around… but I’m going to stick to it. The thing is… I have to keep setting these goals. With Elijah coming, it’s even more important that I achieve them, because I want to show him that you can fill your dreams as long as you push hard enough and don’t give up.

I may end up going back to doing some commission writing as well. I’m not sure. Things are certainly changing… but I’m excited for it!

So, until next time! Keep read and writing, and keep being the awesome people that you are!

Author Amanda McCormick

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Camp NaNo Update

Posted: April 30, 2017 in camp nanowrimo, Creative WRiting

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That is all ❤

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So, here we are on the last day of Camp NaNoWriMo… and I’m actually completely unsure of whether or not I’m gonna win. I have around 3000 words to still write, and I could probably get it done…

But, I have other obligations. I have a room to get completely cleaned out so that I can move and get settled before I pop out my little monster ❤ I have to somehow find enough time to still get enough sleep so that I don’t feel ill (which involves me sleeping during the day because I toss and turn at night). I have a million and one things to do… and I know that there’s a chance that I will fail at NaNo (though I will update you guys tomorrow and let you know for sure as to what happened)… but the point is, I don’t feel bad about it.

That’s kind of the beautiful thing about Camp. I don’t take it as seriously as the real NaNo. I don’t think of it as something that I have to win – I set myself a goal, and I do my best to attain it, but I’m always really happy with the results, regardless of whether I got 10,000 or 50,000. Maybe I’m just weird for the fact that I don’t think Camp is as serious as the November NaNo, but that’s kind of how I go along with it.

I’m also pretty pleased with what I managed to do this month, as far as my writing prompts go. I haven’t gotten that much done, but the ones that I did do have inspired me for new novel ideas, which is always amazing (and a little hectic, since I should seriously quit having new novel ideas all of the time – you know, editing one completely would be a much better use of my time xD). Still, I’m happy with the ideas. I’m extremely happy with the fact that I feel creative, even if I don’t have the time to be as creative as I’d like right at this moment.

I’m looking forward, and onward. Onward to a time when I’m going to have my writing space set up in our new house, and it’s going to be in the same room as my baby. I’m not gonna be able to just sit and write for hours on end (obviously, there’s gonna be a little on there), but I am going to be able to concentrate on my writing while my baby is napping in the same room as me.

My mind is certainly flooded with a lot of thoughts right now. As a first time mama, you tend to go in circles in your heads about how things are going to work, how things are going to be, (how labor is gonna be, oh dear), and a million other things. But my mind is also focused and clear on the fact that I want to write – more than that, that I really and truly want to focus on getting a book completely polished and sent off to an agent. It’s not really about making a ton of money (though that would be nice, eh?), it’s about setting an example for the sweet little boy that I’m bringing in the world. It’s about showing him that you can follow dreams, and that you can put your mind to something and get it done.

It’s about a lot of things. And Camp has happily gotten me back into the set of mind that I love writing, and that I can do this writing things even when things are crazy. I might not always get as much done as I wanted to, but I’ll still get a lot done.

Camp, writing, NaNoWriMo… it’s always such a wonderful experience, because it always brings you back to the core of what you really enjoy doing, and it makes you think about it.

I love to think about writing, and I certainly love to think about someday seeing my book on a shelf. This month has given me a taste for how being busy is going to change my writing habits, but it’s a good taste. It’s a taste that is getting me ready for the future… and it’s a future that I’m more than willing to embrace and get ready for. So, yeah, I may not win my Camp adventure (though just writing this blog is pumping me up to do just that, and I really do think that I can!), but I still feel like I’ve won, regardless of what the word count says. I’ve done a good job, and I’m ready to run as close as I can to the finish line with the thoughts and feelings that I have right now. I’m ready to get there, and feel like a winner regardless.

I am wondering though, how has Camp been for all of you? I’d love to hear about how much writing you’ve gotten done, what your stories were about, etc. I’d love to hear about the ups and downs of your camp adventures – just link me to blogs that you wrote about it, or write the blogs and then tag my name in them! Whatever you do, I’d love ot hear about it!

As a side note, now that the month is coming to an end, I should be getting back to the other types of blogs that I was writing before – the writing prompts, tips, currently, tags, etc. I’m excited to get back to those, and I would love to get some feedback before I do to see if there’s anything else that you all would like to see for my posts! I’m always more than happy to please you guys while getting things done, and I’m really excited about my progress and moving forward!

So, I think that about covers everything for the moment. I will have another blog up either this afternoon or tomorrow to let you guys know if I managed to get those last few thousand words that I needed to get in order to actually win at NaNo. Looking forward, it doesn’t seem like that much after all, and I really think that I can do it! I know that you guys can! It’s the last day, just push as far as you can!

So, until next time! Keep read and writing, and keep being the awesome people that you are!

Author Amanda McCormick

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Did you guys think I’d disappeared completely? I wouldn’t really blame you… I’ve been gone for a while, after all. The fact is, being pregnant and trying your hardest to move all in the same month of doing NaNo is hard. It’s made worse by the fact that I found out I’m pretty anemic (ergo, why I’m sleeping all of the time).

I have fallen behind.

And… I’m not going to let it freak me out. So, I’m saying the same thing to all of you who have fallen behind and decided to give up. ❤ Don’t do that! Falling behind doesn’t mean automatic failure.

Yeah, things are gonna be a little harder, and you’re gonna have to play catchup. You’re going to go through a few difficult days if you decide to do it all at once, OR you’re gonna have to slightly up your wordcount and spread it out through the rest of the month. NaNo is only half over, guys ❤ you can certainly still do this.

I keep thinking about the fact that my husband told me that I really needed to do Camp, because I’d be disappointed in myself if I didn’t. I keep thinking about the fact that I certainly won’t be able to do Camp in July, as I’m gonna be having a baby in July and even I’m not that crazy.

I keep thinking about the fact that he’s right, and there’s no reason to give up on myself. Even if I end up only getting half of what I planned to get, that’s still more than what I started out with. When you’re writing, when you’re creating, and when you’re trying? You never really lose!

So, keep your chin up, guys. We’re half through, and I know that you can keep on keeping on, even if it seems impossible right now!

That’s all for now though ❤ I’m actually gonna go and get a few words written, so I can start playing the catchup game. Since I have ridiculous insomnia, maybe I can put it to my favor and get further along than I previously though. Of course, I have no idea what I’m going to be writing about… but that’s the fun of writing prompts, now isn’t it?

Okay, away!

So, until next time! Keep read and writing, and keep being the awesome people that you are!

Author Amanda McCormick

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